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Anna Schott's avatar

It's so hard. Best wishes, Gérard.

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Gérard Mclean's avatar

Thank you. It is the hardest hard… 😢

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Maureen Elyse Gilbert's avatar

Oh Gérard I lost my dog a year ago this Monday. It’s so hard - and my walks are so hard to bear on my own. It’s like losing a child and a best friend all at once. Sending you so much love.

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Amy K Williams's avatar

This is so hard. I am sorry you are going through it.

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Jeanne Grant, Ph.D.'s avatar

You're not alone in wrestling with these tough questions. I had to say goodbye to my best buddy in September and I started fostering soon after, then "foster failed" but of course succeeded in finding another good buddy. There are no right answers.

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Harry Whitcher's avatar

💙 for you and Zoey, Gerard. And tell society to do one with all of that "brave face" bull chips.

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Jane Fisher's avatar

I subscribed to your Substack the other day on the recommendation of (the brilliant) Paul Crenshaw, and the very first post landing in my email has me fighting back tears. The strength of the bond makes the breaking so agonizing.

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Gérard Mclean's avatar

Paul is brilliant! I promised myself that I would try writing more on joy after I collected my past ten years into a book, after I took a break and I break my promise by releasing the draft I’ve been staring at for months… 😔 Zoey is the last of a very large pack of canine friends which makes it even harder. She is also the oldest any of them have ever been so she is my longest canine relationship. These days, we sleep together on the sofa on the main level because she can’t go up stairs… I’ve said too much already… it is hard… thanks for walking a little ways with me.

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Jane Fisher's avatar

I'm content to read anything that is well written and I don't mind reading something that brings tears (it reminds me I can still care enough to have that response). I'm sorry that, in this case, it is your misery which is reminding me of my humanity. I lost the last of my pet friends (a cat) a few years ago. The last loss does hit even harder, because it is also the loss of connection to the pack and shared memories.

I wish I had magic words to make it easier, but...

...it is hard, indeed...

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Katie Beyrer's avatar

🥺❤

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Suzanne Peters-Float's avatar

My heart aches for you. Sending so much love.

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Elizabeth Albright's avatar

I’m sorry to hear your dog is so ill. 💔

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Runs with Dogs's avatar

Gerard I am so sorry. So so so sorry. I have lost 3 dogs (2 to old age, 1 to illness) and the dog-size holes in my heart never healed. I still miss them every single day. It is devastating.

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Perry J. Greenbaum 🇨🇦 🦜's avatar

This is not an easy position to be in; after 25 years of faithful and loving companionship. Knowing that this is coming to an end. The love. I do not know if there is an afterlife, but if there is one, I want to be reunited with all my faithful animal companions.

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Janis Satre's avatar

I’m sorry and sad, Gerard. Dogs are such precious little beings and add so much to our lives. Losing them leaves a big hole in our lives and heart. In my personal experience, the only thing that helped, was adopting another dog after a while. My dog would have wanted another pup to have a chance at a loving home. If that’s in the cards…you’ll feel it and find the right pup waiting for you.

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Kathleen Hobbs's avatar

My heart breaks for you

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Glenna Penn's avatar

I’m so sorry!!!

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Billy5959's avatar

You gave your dog the absolute joy of your companionship, and your dog had the comfort of passing before you. As C S Lewis said "The pain I feel now is the happiness I had before. That's the deal". You will heal, and you will look back with love (and I believe your dog will always be walking beside you).

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Wendy E's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss! I'm struggling with my 12 year old aging and every time I think about her dying, it crushes me. Just remember the good times and long walks and honor the dog's memory any time you can! ❤️

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